All lyrics © 1999 Psylab Studios

DARK DAY
- words by Leif
I was very depressed for a long time, and part of the problem with depression is that you begin to just not care about anything, even when you know that it's unwise and self-defeating. It's a loop that's very difficult to get out of.

On this dark day
I'm enjoying the sickness
On this dark day
I know what I want to forget
These are dark days
To the core of my brain
What is it? What does it say?



WANDERING OF THE WOMB
- words by Leif
Like "Dark Day", this came out of my distress at being stuck in a spiral, which seemed to drain life of any joy or meaning.

Wandering through time
Wandering through lives
Senses like mouths
Emotions like knives
Neither right nor wrong
A page once turned is gone
Time is disease
The clock is my enemy
Day by day by day
Doomed to live this way
Unjustified life
Creeping thought
Striving to rise
Drowned in the dark



A SOUL UPON ALL THIS
- words by Leif
I wrote these when reading about the afterlife and astral projection. It's a fascinating idea, but it's one of the many things that are difficult to believe in without at least a little proof.

The other life
Goes where I can't go
The other self
Knows what I don't know
Doors slowly open
As eyes slowly close
A mind uncovered
A soul exposed
So many tiny lives
And one of them is mine
The body doesn't have to die
To let me be outside



OCTOBER
- words by Lars

I'm running through dark twisted trees
You're laughing and one step behind me
But this game has begun to scare me
A cold wind rushes through me
And I sense your presence in me
You're breathing though me,
breathing through me
I close my eyes and I let go
As I feel you tugging at my soul
But am I dreaming? Am I dreaming?



TRISTESSE
- words by Leif
I made up this little story about a vampire woman. It was inspired, as was "carmilla", by the film "Vampire Lovers."

My gossamer queen
Gracing moonlit oriel
The black sky is falling
We vanish into the night
Stealing my breath
Your eyes gently killing me
Your promises were not true
But still I will follow you



CLOUD OF UNKNOWING
- words by Leif
This is about meditation, titled after an excellent Medieval book on the subject.

When colors fade and darkness falls
When nothing is sacred and silence calls
When wheel has turned and the sun has set
What is left?
With all the knots of life untied
Names forgotten, memories hide
Eyes blind and ears deaf
What is left?
When debts are paid and the race has been run
When chains are broken and the game is done
When mind is empty and body rests
What is left? What is left?



GALATEA
- words by Lars
When Leif and I were children we would sometimes visit one of our aunts. She had a room in her basemant that we sometimes played in and it was filled with dolls. They were like her children. It was a little sureal even then. And this song is inspired by those days and the idea of falling in love with a doll.

You're my little girl
Your little dress, your little curls
I place your hand on my beating heart
I whisper to you "we must never part"
You look at me with your big blue eyes
Always hiding behind a synthetic disguise
With your porcelain skin and you plastic hair
Conversation can not be shared
Your lips never move
and your heart does not beat
But I will still hold you close to me
In my dreams I hear you speak
The light in your eyes invades my sleep
Noone else would ever believe
But I know you know, I know you see



LONG LOST
- words by Leif
This song is for a woman I was with years ago. We had some fundamental differences and the relationship was doomed, but I will still always miss her.

With remorse and uncertainty
I hold on to this need
The painful decision
To drop a dead dream
Emotions unspoken
Thoughts unconfessed
Memories of a future
That will never manifest