Oneiroid Psychosis Sentient lyrics

Coalesce
-written by Lars
Conjoining through physical and spiritual means.

I am speaking to myself
But I feel your voice inside my ear
You remove my self from myself
And I'm sewn into your skin
A pleasure I can't understand
Life within my hands
This need to feed my greed
It frees me eternally
I cover you with my mouth
You inhale my breath
Please stop resisting our union in death

Child Spell
-written by Leif
It's a child's spell for staying young forever by blowing dandelion seeds.

Seeds on the wind
Carried away
Where I am is where I'll stay
Springtime for me
And everything new
Summer and fall and winter for you
Seeds on the wind
Drifting away
I hide from years of tears and pain

Ambivalence
-written by Lars

Time has brought many things in my life
But I never thought this would ever be brought to me
And because of this a part of me has died
And because of this I see it all in a different light
All the trust is gone
All those years are gone
Tell me who took your soul
Tell me who lost control
Tell me who sealed our fate
Tell me how love turns to hate
Everything that you betrayed
Everything that you destroyed
Things will never be the same
Trust will never be regained
So make a wish before you die
Make a wish and so will I
Tell me who took your soul
Tell me who lost control
Tell me who sealed our fate
Tell me how love turns to
Hate it grows inside me
Hate it flows consuming me
I cast pain upon you
I hope guilt destroys you
I curse your throne of iniquity
I wish ill upon my enemy
When you take your last breath
Know that I'm the cause of your death
Again and again I close my eyes
Again and again I ask why
I never felt pain like this before
And my pain is what you ignore
So are you deaf
Can you not hear
Or are you ignorant
Because I am clear
How long will you disturb my life
How long will you bring me strife
All I want is you away from me
All I want is to live in peace

Away My Life
-written by Leif
This is about dying and being reunited with spirits you knew.

Wake me up and lift me
Tell me it was a dream
Say that you didn't forget me
Say that you missed me too
I don't want to sleep anymore
This night has been too long
Take my hand before I slip away
Share with me your secrets
And show me what was hidden
There's nothing I can do
There's nowhere I belong
Unwilling to give up
Unable to go on
I ask you where you were
You ask me where was I
Your voice reaches my ears
But from where I can not say
There's nothing I want more
Than to simply see your face
I don't know what I'll do
If I fail to find you

As I Wake
-written by Lars
I often wake in the middle of the night with this intense feeling of doom. I feel that I have not done enough in life and yet all I have done means nothing because we are all just going to die.

As I wake
From my sleep
I feel doom
And that my life
Will end soon
And I ask myself
What have I done
And have I done enough
I close my eyes again
And hope that this feeling goes away
I pray when I go Ill know
What this is for
I'm not healing
I can't take anymore
I'm pleading to know
Please tell me
Show me what is this for

It Won't Go Away
-written by Lars
About an abusive relationship. Neither one willing to leave and neither one having anything positive to give.

You're so willing to give yourself away
That's what made you this way
See you trembling. Touch you softly
Close your eyes, your soul dies
Lost in madness. Take this sickness
What I do to you will hurt me too
Something tells you should not stay
But you wont go away
I expose the your frailty
And how you break so easily
I never knew what I could do
Dreams can come true
These things I do to you
Wasting our time in loosing our minds
Hating our lives. Misuse wont make it right
Tell me something but please say nothing
In between there's no substance
Together we will fall
Things wont be alright. But you hold so tight
Evil will descend, Loyal to the end

I Am The Totality
-written by Lars
Looking for happiness through others and only finding disappointment. And being afraid to look toward ones self.

What is all this
Search for true bliss
Reaching out to never find
And be led by the blind
Reaching out to find myself
Reaching out to someone else
A consequence from the seeds I've sown
This is a journey I must take alone
Is there reverence that my body hides
Will I find a light inside
To be pure and self aware
Will my journey end there
Reaching out to never find
And be led by the blind
Reaching out to find myself
Reaching out to someone else
Spending days dissatisfied
Will I waste my life until I die

Incarnate
-written by Leif
This concerns the soul's incarnation into matter.

Live it out through walls of flesh
Living mind and matter meshed
Enter the body, enter the earth
Spiritual death, material birth
Birth and death, body possessed
Sinking into walls of flesh
Eyes and ears and hands
How do they hold the soul in meat?

The Sardonic Smile
-written by Lars
Having to do with recent matters that have effected me in a very negative way, leaving me with a bitterness that I am not used to feeling. I'm left thinking about how I, as well as all of us, once had so much purity and innocence and it is destroyed by the bad things that people do to one another.

My life has changed
I will never be the same
A bitterness in me
This is not how I thought I'd ever be
I once was innocent
I once was pure
What happened to me
What was it for
Disappointment, distrust, disbelief
Is this worth living for
All our lives we search for contentment
Only to hold it for a while
Inside we harbor resentment
that we hide behind a smile